damn, i should have read that book ...

i feel like such a fucking lame-ass hippie poser right now. i am sitting here with my fucking lava lamp, listening to psychadelic music and thinking about how much the government is out to get us.

but really, it is. i thought it was pretty fucked up earlier this week when i learned that we are now going to be required to have a national id, and that id will have a computer chip in it that logs everywhere the id is used. this is some sick as orwellian shit, yo.

i don't know what i think of it all. i know it doesn't feel right. i know that i don't feel like becoming any more part of this system than i already have. i am starting to feel like mikey. it's a little crazy.

at least i am not foolish enough to think that anyone gives a fuck about me and what i do or say, but it is still a little freaky. i feel like i am forced to choose between two options, face whatever consequences will arise when i refuse to get the required card, or leave the country. obviously the latter sounds like a much, much better idea ... but it would take more money than i have right now. i suppose i should find out how much time i have.

the world really did change a few years ago. i hope that no one thinks otherwise. the amount of crazy ass shit in the world seems to be multiplying in some sick little snowball like manner. i hope i don't wake up tomorrow in a world that i no longer love. i guess that's a rather foolish statement.

whatever. clearly i am tired. i didn't even go on about the bankruptcy thing. but whatever. please tell me that a sane man will be our next president.