when the mourning becomes a different day ... and more pitiful diatribe

i have no idea what is going on with tom delay, but i do know that it must be a very slow news day, as they say in the hood. of course, i am still sitting here wondering why people dying in iraq so that our lazy asses can drive the stupid shit that we drive (and for the more sinister and long-term goal of global domination via the oil market) isn't the first story every fucking time i turn on the news, or when i get that email from the times every night.

there is no doubt about it, i am a piece of shit, and the flies are getting in the way of holiness. yep. and that's just how it goes. don't worry about what that means, if you were unlucky enough to try and ready this entry.

the truth is that i am quite fed up with the world right now, in case you can't tell. and i don't particularly like it when politics become news. i am not sure i agree with the american news values as it is. i remember sitting in class (doesn't matter which one, all of my journalism instructors were pretty much morons -- caveat: don't go to hsu for journalism) and wondering what kind of spineless bitch it takes to not only accept what you are told, but to try and make other muthafuckers into your idea.

the only shit that i ever heard that had even the tiniest ring of truth in my college days was this notion of agenda setting. and it seems to me that if you can accept agenda setting, then you should realize that what we perceive as news values are actually propaganda agents trying to make the world think like you do.

i mean, i am not trying to say that people are stupid, but they really are fucking morons when it comes right on down to it, and shit. and it seems to me that the general public wants to be fucking brainwashed anyway.

oh god, i am rambling again. i have a hard time seperating what is just the natural hatred of my mind andwhat is the bitter remnants of a life rejected ... and painful to live anyway. or something. but this is the wrong shit to write in this journal.

so i guess i should just say my shit and get the fuck out of the room. i think that we all need to accept responsibility for the shit that didn't turn out right, but that until the people who teach the nonsense of the past that we are trying to move away from learn to be more critical and aware of what it is that they are doing to the people we truly owe our allegiance to ... or something.

fuck tom delay, and another crooked politician. let me know the truth about what it is that lets me live the life i am aloud to live, granted only because of the life i chose to be born into.

really, what the fuck am i talking about. thank god no one reads this shit.