some thoughts on the debate ...

well, i think that if you wanted kerry to win the debate tonight, then you probably got what you wanted. but if you wanted him to make a convincing argument for him to be the next president, then i am not sure that he really lived up to expectations.

really, i think that the country is just stupid. and when they look at the two up there on the stage, you get the feeling that kerry is really smart and well prepared, and bush is really stupid. and having said that, i think it's kind of clear that the american people have a lot more in common with bush.

i saw him making arguments that i just know most of my friends would make. stupid petty arguments that focuse on details and not the overall picture.

but kerry did do what i thought he needed to do before the election began. he held his own. he was calm, and he let the true dubya come out. bush looked a lot like gore did in 2000. he was childish and impatient. he stuttered and was at a loss for words more often than not.

but it should be recognized that kerry did not win the debate. people who were going to vote for bush before, are still going to vote for him. kerry still did not put any distance between him and bush in regards to their positions, yet you could tell that's what he was trying to do from the very beginning.

as far as i am concerned, i am more convinced now than i ever have been that kerry will not get my vote. kerry proved to me that he is still a far cry from being antiwar, which is a prerequisite for my vote. he even ended the night with a hollow threat aimed toward anyone that would harm an american. and i still have not seen a candidate comment on our own proliferation of nuclear weapons to our allies (i.e. israel). yet both of the candidates insisted that the end of nuclear proliferation was a key concern.

i just feel like they are both idiots. kerry may be the lesser of two evils, but i am no longer going to use that for a reason to support someone or thing. call me stupid, or whatever you like, but i am going to try and take some sort of moral high ground.

but i did take a little bit of joy from watching bush look like the bafoon that we all know he is.

the most bizarre sports story ever ...

i am not even sure that i can believe this, but what the hell. i just find it funny that the thing that helps this guy the most is that his teammates forced him to dress like a girl. when i first heard this, i was rolling ... trust me. it's just hillarious.

anyway, i thought i would write a quick little pre-debate note. i have said time and time again that i have no intention on supporting kerry with my vote. and well, since i am already talking about sports, i thought i would tie it into sports.

the giants get my vote. they will always get my vote. yeah, sure, as a kid i was a yankees fan. and i guess i still am. and that's where i am going to tie it in. in a situation like the election, where you get to choose anyone you want, i would always vote for the giants. but let's say the giants (and the yankees) aren't even in the election. in that situation, i am just going to want to watch the red sox lose.

and i think that george bush is a lot like the red sox in my mind. now there is no way in hell that i would want the cubs, or the astros -- and certianly not the dodgers -- to win anything. and i would never "vote" for them. but i would take a great pleasure in watching any team beat the red sox. call me a sadist.

so though i don't support kerry with my vote, i am hoping that he beats bush. and i think that starts with tonight. i know that the debates mean very little anymore. these two guys are not going to be up there talking about issues. i mean, there will be issues, but they will not be answering them honestly. i mean, doesn't anyone other than me remember bush saying that he doesn't believe in "nation building?"

the debates are more of a contest to prove to the american public that you can carry your own weight on the world stage. in the last election, gore got smashed. clinton always won. so did regan. and they won not with issues (because they are all full of shit), but rather with charisma.

kerry needs to have charisma tonight (especially since i am going to watch the debates over the giants game). if he does not prove himself likable, then he proves himself unelectable. it really is his last chance. and for those of us who would like to see bush lose, it may be our last chance as well.

would you like hypocrisy with your tea?

i am not sure where the united states and japan get off talking. i mean, the united states is an easy one. this is still the only nation that has ever used a nuclear weapon against another nation -- ironically, japan -- and has been using nuclear technology in the war in iraq as well as has a history for using chemical weapons.

and japan, though they don't make nuclear weapons or nuclear technologies, without the machinery that comes from japan, the making of nuclear weapons would not even be possible. and i am not even going into china and japan.

so really, does it make a lot of sense that these two nations should be the nations to harass north korea? i am not even sure that north korea needs to be harassed for trying to obtain nuclear weapons. after all, i am only going to be pissed if they use them, and there doesn't really seem to be a viable way to bring an end to the nuclear age at this point.

it seems a lot like a group of nuclear nations getting together to tell another nation that it can't become nuclear. and well ... that doesn't sound a lot like my concept of freedom. which brings me to the real question: am i really that naive and stupid?

yes, i think it's true. my general disdain doesn't seem to encourage my moronic optimism. and that can't be a good thing.

but you know, i was looking at the paper, and there doesn't seem to be a lot that i find interesting right now. it feels like i am going through one of those periods where i just don't take current events very seriously. maybe that's because i am not taking life very seriously.

but seriously, there are still a lot of people dying. and i don't know that i really understand the united states stepping forth in the world community as if it is some moral leader ... as if has been outside the cave and can shed some light.

it's one of those things that has always gotten me. how can i be proud to be an american when i can't even sympathize with what my nation is doing in the world? i can't. i am just not proud to be an american. i wonder how much longer i can live here? of course, i don't see myself leaving anytime too soon.

i don't know about you, but i never really liked nature anyway ...

yeah ... how's this? the thing that never suprises me about dubya is his constant persiut of what i perceive as his goals -- doing whatever he can for the people that i believe put him in office (i.e. big oil and the rest of the upper 1 percent). and even more, they way that he does it all so openly, and when he denies it, people listen.

what they talk about in this article will probably not be much of an issue. i am sure that the democrats will try and make it an issue, and dubya will simply say that the democrats aren't looking for solutions -- and he is by trying to lessen the american dependence on foriegn oil. and the people will just buy that, thinking that it is further proof that bush is a good wartime president.

there is something horribly wrong with the world. i don't really know how to explain it, but these people are just plain fucked up. the only way that i could see bush being president of anything would be if we gave rich people a lot more votes, compared to people of the lower classes. and even then, it would be a close call.

but no, people like this fuck. oh well. i guess that if i am not going to be alive for much longer, and if i am not going to be having children, then the earth doesn't really a lot to me. naw, i ain't foolin' no one. this sucks. but it's just the direction that the world is headed.

violence, violence and more violence ...

i did something rather uncharacteristic the other night. i took the word "violence" out of my list of interests on some website (which will remain unnamed). really, i had to cut down on characters, but that was the word i chose to eliminate.

reason being: i am just not cool with violence when i read the papers. it's one thing in movies (i am watching apocalypse now right now, and watched kill bill vol. 2 yesterday) but it is something completely different when you read the paper and see this stupid shit everyday.

really, what the fuck is wrong with people? and why aren't people upset about this? and yes, i know the hippies and the leftists are upset, but they don't matter. and neither do the right wing nuts. no one matters but that group of stupid fucks that seem to think the middle is cool, and that there is a definition of normal. and even worse, they think they know what that definition is. and that's what really makes them dangerous.

i guess there isn't anything about this article that upset me. i am just so disapointed in everyone who isn't bothered that this man is our president. i mean, if someone causes this much shit on the job, you fire them. why haven't we fired him already? and of course, he will still be president, and people will still be dying in iraq, this time next year.

oh well. oh well. that's all i can really say. and i am tired anyway.

i think i smell a revolution

everytime that i see a headline like this in the paper, i start to see russia crumbling before my very own eyes. i was watching this thing on the history channel the other day. it was about the czars. and they talked about how the whole russian empire had started with peter's quest to make russia as good as any european empire.

and the same sort of notion has remained in the years since. but russia always sort of fails. i guess that if you want to be as good as everyone else, you are admitting to yourself that you aren't as good now. and maybe russia just isn't as good as everyone else.

but ... they do have a lot of nuclear weapons. and that can be a real problem, especially if your country is falling apart at the seams, which it seems to be doing.

the suicide bombings? well ... get used to it. it might be the path to freedom for the oppressed for years to come. and it merely foreshadows what could be done with the nuclear weapons when the people finally take hold of russia, as they have been trying to do since before peter the great.

i really don't know what i am talking about. i am very tired, though. so ... i must go to sleep now.

not sure how this is a story

i am not sure anyone wasn't seeing the message in the bush campaign as being that if you don't vote bush, you are voting for another terrorist attack. so i am not sure what the big idea is.

but having said that, i would think that most people are going to recognize bush owns responsibility for the attacks. and that is not to say that he was maliciously involved. it is that bush is the embodiment of what is wrong with america. he is the symbol of what they attacked that day. and it's not freedom.

george bush stands for christianity. he stands for individualism. he stands for imperialism. he stands for revenge. he stands for ignorance. he stands for capitalism. he stands for secrecy. he stands for the evil in the world.

of course, bin laden isn't a whole lot different. and really, when the fuck did bush last mention bin laden's name? when did kerry? and why the fuck did we stop talking about getting bin laden?

another story in the times this morning says that the iraq death toll has now reached more than 1,000 americans. bush didn't mention that today either. he is being allowed to get away with everything. these are significant problems.

and moreover, our involvement in iraq is also very much a sign of the sickness of america -- which drove bin laden to attack the united states that tuesday morning. the truth is, bush should resign. he is putting this nation in a very bad situation. and it is only a matter of time until we find ourselves on the short end of this war ... all because we had this moron and his band of evil fucks running the government.

having said all of that, i am still not going to vote for kerry. he can be as anti-war as he likes, it's just too late. he has only proved himself to me to the kind of man who is going to say whatever he has to in order to get elected. it's pathetic. it's as pathetic as living in a country where george w. bush is president.

my idea of the solution (this morning): pull out of iraq. if bin laden is not in afghanistan, pull out of there (and any other country where the majority of citizens does not support our presence). if he is, find him ... NOW!!! and war is not the answer here anyway. withdraw all assistance to israel until the borders recede (and that means to the 1969 borders ... i am sorry, but i don't buy the whole pre-1968 border thing -- if you want new borders, fight another war ... i don't care). we should not be supporting a theocratic regime that is very much a threat to its neighbors. but that doesn't mean attack them. with all that done, i don't think we would have to continue a war on terror any longer.

as far as israel goes, it's about time for them to prove they are a real country. they can't keep up this aggresive action without facing and consequences. if you steal you neighbors' land, then they have the right to fight back ... and bring in allies. and where are the allies of palestine anyway?

it's all stupid politics over there. that's just one more reason why the united states should turn its back and walk away. those people are crazy. and the whole land is divided by both geopolitical needs/religious ideas. and for them, there is no end in sight.

but we have problems over here. please, someone focus on what is going on over here. racisim is alive in well. the lower classes are doomed from the first breaths they draw. the american dream is dead. and no one cares. whatever. i am tired.

still not going to get my vote ... but it's a start

this is a nice change in pace, if you don't want dubya in the white house, and i don't. but just as i was telling miss ashalee earlier tonight, i am not down to vote for kerry at all. his war history was always a sore spot for me, i just don't think that i want to live in a society so determined by war. and no, i may not plan on moving away quite yet, but i plan on letting my voice be heard ... by anyone that will listen.

so really, there never was a chance for kerry to get my vote. i remember telling bonny jean that last year. and as things went on, and i learned that he did a lot to protest vietnam after his return, i started to soften. but as his stance on the iraq war softened, mine in turn got much more agro.

for this election, if you want my vote, you better be anti-war. and really, unless your name is bill bradley, you should probably just give up. well ... i will most likely vote for nader. i don't think that nader should be president, but he is anti-war and a member of a third party. and yeah, i have said it before ... but if i am throwing my vote away, i am going to throw it away for something i believe in.

so to me, voting for nader is a lot like just voting for a third party, but that's not the point of this entry.

i really did love clinton. and i know, i have learned enough to know that he was not really the man that i thought he was as a president, but i loved him still. i would still vote for him, and i would still say that he was the greatest president of all time. would you ever know that i am a registered republican? but yeah ... cause i am all about that shit.

but i do think that kerry is right to go to clinton. if kerry is going to win, or at least get me to vote for him, he needs to prove that he is different than dubya. i could really give a fuck less about the stupid fucking war on terror. and the only thing i want to hear about iraq is that the united states is no longer going to take part in nation building, and that the troops are coming home.

so this is my shopping list: no on the war; yes on gay marriage; yes on stem cell research; yes on more taxes and the roll back of dubya's targeted tax breaks; yes on a progressive environmental policy; yes on a radically different foriegn policy -- which means the end of the era of pushing "democracy" on other nations. and really, it would be awesome if there was a president that supported the recreational use of marijuana, but i am trying to be realistic.

i could care less about the economy and the solutions to economic problems. i just think that rich fuckers should have to pay a lot more money. but i want to know that he is a different man. and kerry really needs to stop being such a fucking wussy. if he can't stand up to bush, he can't really stand up at all. that's like einstein bowing down to corky, it just don't fly.

when the fuck are we just going to have communists, socialists, anarchists and true democrats all in the mix? none of these people are represented in the political system right now. we just have the two parties of spineless moderates. people should disagree. that's how we get something out of this stupid fucking process. and if there is no room for variety, there is no room for freedom, plain and simple.

oh ... whatever. i am going to shut the fuck up right now.

i'm sorry for not raping that bitch ...

yeah, i don't know what to say about this one. i read this apology, and it seems to me that he is admitting to raping her. on the other hand, it does seem a little weird that her lawyer released the statement.

i don't like it at all. if you didn't rape her, don't say you are sorry for raping her. of course, it was a he said she said sort of case, and i am not sure that a jury decision would have eased the situation in any one's mind. and i am tempted to say that lines will be drawn along color lines.

so i guess this is for the best. it seems to be the punishment for a rich black athlete. you get to buy your way you, but you really have to pay some hard earned money, and no one is going to believe you anyway.

so i am just going to forget the whole thing happened. i never like kobe much as a person, and i have the greatest respect for him as a basketball player. and that's fine to me.