i think it would be ironic ... if it were ironic

The New York Times > International > Middle East > Muslim Divide: Iraqis Fearing a Sunni Boycott of the Election

i found the parallels of the newspaper interesting today. this story is a little queer. who the fuck are the people that thought the iraqi elections are going to go off without a hitch? i mean, someone should really shoot these people, put them out of their misery. well ... that's assuming that it is them, and not i, who lay in a constant state of misery. and frankly, i am just not going to buy that one yet.

no, i sat thinking last night about the pitiful state of the world when the mean of intelligence is as low as it is. and it really occurred to me that everyone but me must be really happy with everything, or at least people to stand in the way of change. and i am just not the kind of person that believes you should ever force change on someone who doesn't want it.

but whatever, i am getting sidetracked.

i think that it may very well be more blissful to not understand the truth about the world. i think it is an awful painful thing to understand the bullshit that surrounds you ... and to feel as hopeless as i in the fight against. it's like i toe my way between people that don't see what is wrong, and those that don't see that it is all supposed to be this way. and that's the real thing that i don't think people understand. they either want to reject fate and embrace this foolish notion of free will, or they think that the gods of fate are anything more than mere happenstance.

either way, they should get off the pipe. there is no possible solution that iraq has a valid and successful election this winter. and it's just foolish to even talk about it -- let alone do what the times has done here, and assume that it is a forgone truth, and be puzzled and fearful that things might stand in its way. fuck ... i don't even know if that's what i mean to say. i just mean that people should start with the notion of impossibility and move forward.

like the song says, it takes a long time, but god dies too. and maybe that's what i am suggesting, people should give up on this romantic notion of fate. fate is just what happens, and so many people have so much control of it, that no one person could ever truly have free will.

you can call it pessimistic or something, but it really isn't. it's the answer to wading through a world you despise and maintaining a love for life. you know, if you assume that everything really just fucking sucks, then you will be so pleasantly surprised when that's not the way it is. it's far better than lying to yourself that things are better, and then finding out what shit it all really is. not that i would know, i have been so enlightened for as long as i can remember.

anyway, there's some morrisette style irony here. the story next to this one in the online version of the times that i read this morning was almost the same thing, only worrying about the confidence of black americans in our electoral system. but i wonder how many people will actually put the two together.

there is a lot that we want to overlook about the world ... and more specifically, the united states. we have some serious fucking problems here. the end of the pax americana is nearing, and we are all thinking that not only are we the best in the world, but that we are getting better. i think that the fucking morons of the world have bought into the "rising tides raises all ships" bullshit.

i don't know. i just don't know. i know i want the next year to pass. i want this all to blow over really quick. i want to go to bed (preferably with a beautiful woman that i adore) and wake up in a world where george bush isn't president, you don't find corn syrup in cashews at the grocery store, and that the world ending in 2012 and the rapture happening in 2005 jive so nicely. i guess i am saying that i want christianity to finally come to an end. but alas, i am a stupid, stupid man. in fact, i think i am as naive as the morons i detest.