half-assed world domination ...
you know what really pisses me off about the war in iraq? no, i am not some pussy that is going to cry about the deaths, whether they are american soldiers or iraqis (either of the "innocent" or of the "insurgent" variety -- matters not).
really, the only part of the death that has every really bothered me has been that i have been living, continue to live, and will most likely always live on the fat of the lamb that is american policies, both foreign and domestic. and though it is the same sort of policies that "hold me down" and whatnot, i know that my existence would be pretty meager if it weren't for slavery, capitalism and mindless following and the likes that have produced this great union.
on some sort of stoned sidenote, i wonder what whitman would think if he ever read my writing. would he adore in me what i have taken from him? or would he even be able to understand? my guess is the latter. no one ever really understands. and how could they? and that's the end of the tangent.
i guess i don't like it because i would gladly choose the meager existence if that is what i thought the fates had planned for me. i would certainly opt consciously to live a meager existence if living the life i live had to mean the deaths of innocents ... or even offenders. no matter who you are, i do not believe that you should have to die for me or the likes.
at the same time, i am not so idealistic as to reject all that i am in favor of what i think should be. one of the ways that we are certain that the existence we have created for ourselves is not the truer existence is that we are faced often with the conflicts of worlds. when my world and your world come to head, logic dictates that my world should always win out, as i am the omnipotent creator. and at the same time, logic also dictates that you should always win out. but what really happens seems to be interdependent not only on each of worlds and existences, but of all relevant ones to the scenario. and with fear of starting some sort of butterfly effect tangent, possibly more than just that.
that was the long way of saying that i realize that even with some sort of incarnation of "free will" i am still a slave to the existences of others. and that, of course, is a good thing. don't get me wrong. i am attempting to use the word slavery with some sort of positive connotation. but at the same time, i am equating such a connotation with the positive connotations of words like disgust, hurtful, and (most understandably) death. in these connotations, the positive aspect is a deeper, longer and more aesthetic expression.
well, those are both the long ways of saying that i have no intention on changing my life because i don't like my government's foreign policy. the truth is, and this is what does piss me off about the war, is that i don't see the logic in this shit.
i do think that we are at an interesting crossroads in the history of american civilization. this is undoubtedly the end of the pax americana. this thing has run its course, and it is time for the union to adjust or fall. i think (and often like to hope) that people will soon see how obsolete the constitution is.
but i watch what my government does, and i am just baffled. why make this commitment to iraq? why not invade mexico or canada? yes, i sort of joke. obviously, it isn't very logical to assume your neighbors are your friends and go ahead and attack the rest of the world. this is just not wise. in fact, if america goes too far in the wrong direction, i can assure you that both mexico and canada will be significant factors in the end of the american empire.
but iraq means nothing other than oil. does that mean that the only motivation for iraq is greed? is that what our government has become? i think that if you asked most people that support bush and this war effort, they would like to be kicking ass because we are american and better than them, not because some stupid fat bitch wants to get rich on a fuel source that itself will soon be obsolete. it is all so half-assed.
the problem is that most of our man power is going to be either deployed or with a low morale by the time that we come to blows with korea (china) or someone that really matters. i mean, fuck this iran and syria shit. and yes, i know that it is important to get the natural gas from the central asian republics down to a coastline where it can be shipped to ... me. i really am not as stupid as i sound.
i am probably about as arrogant and ignorant as i must sound. and i certainly am as tired as i sound. so i think it's time that i lie down and pretend like i am going to get some sleep tonight. it's really become quite the habit.
really, the only part of the death that has every really bothered me has been that i have been living, continue to live, and will most likely always live on the fat of the lamb that is american policies, both foreign and domestic. and though it is the same sort of policies that "hold me down" and whatnot, i know that my existence would be pretty meager if it weren't for slavery, capitalism and mindless following and the likes that have produced this great union.
on some sort of stoned sidenote, i wonder what whitman would think if he ever read my writing. would he adore in me what i have taken from him? or would he even be able to understand? my guess is the latter. no one ever really understands. and how could they? and that's the end of the tangent.
i guess i don't like it because i would gladly choose the meager existence if that is what i thought the fates had planned for me. i would certainly opt consciously to live a meager existence if living the life i live had to mean the deaths of innocents ... or even offenders. no matter who you are, i do not believe that you should have to die for me or the likes.
at the same time, i am not so idealistic as to reject all that i am in favor of what i think should be. one of the ways that we are certain that the existence we have created for ourselves is not the truer existence is that we are faced often with the conflicts of worlds. when my world and your world come to head, logic dictates that my world should always win out, as i am the omnipotent creator. and at the same time, logic also dictates that you should always win out. but what really happens seems to be interdependent not only on each of worlds and existences, but of all relevant ones to the scenario. and with fear of starting some sort of butterfly effect tangent, possibly more than just that.
that was the long way of saying that i realize that even with some sort of incarnation of "free will" i am still a slave to the existences of others. and that, of course, is a good thing. don't get me wrong. i am attempting to use the word slavery with some sort of positive connotation. but at the same time, i am equating such a connotation with the positive connotations of words like disgust, hurtful, and (most understandably) death. in these connotations, the positive aspect is a deeper, longer and more aesthetic expression.
well, those are both the long ways of saying that i have no intention on changing my life because i don't like my government's foreign policy. the truth is, and this is what does piss me off about the war, is that i don't see the logic in this shit.
i do think that we are at an interesting crossroads in the history of american civilization. this is undoubtedly the end of the pax americana. this thing has run its course, and it is time for the union to adjust or fall. i think (and often like to hope) that people will soon see how obsolete the constitution is.
but i watch what my government does, and i am just baffled. why make this commitment to iraq? why not invade mexico or canada? yes, i sort of joke. obviously, it isn't very logical to assume your neighbors are your friends and go ahead and attack the rest of the world. this is just not wise. in fact, if america goes too far in the wrong direction, i can assure you that both mexico and canada will be significant factors in the end of the american empire.
but iraq means nothing other than oil. does that mean that the only motivation for iraq is greed? is that what our government has become? i think that if you asked most people that support bush and this war effort, they would like to be kicking ass because we are american and better than them, not because some stupid fat bitch wants to get rich on a fuel source that itself will soon be obsolete. it is all so half-assed.
the problem is that most of our man power is going to be either deployed or with a low morale by the time that we come to blows with korea (china) or someone that really matters. i mean, fuck this iran and syria shit. and yes, i know that it is important to get the natural gas from the central asian republics down to a coastline where it can be shipped to ... me. i really am not as stupid as i sound.
i am probably about as arrogant and ignorant as i must sound. and i certainly am as tired as i sound. so i think it's time that i lie down and pretend like i am going to get some sleep tonight. it's really become quite the habit.
posted by jeames morgan at
5:00:00 AM
2 Comments:
Indeed, as Whitman was thoughtless arrogance personifiecd.
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Cooper, at 7:37 PM
i am sure you are both just blowing hot air up my ass, but it is very kind. of course, i would point out that i think that both whitman and myself would be better characterized as "over-thought" rather than "thoughtless." and i would have to disagree with the general point, in that i think that whitman would find my writing careless, pointed, irreverant and negative.
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jeames morgan, at 9:30 PM
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